Friday, April 13, 2012

Things I LOVE: Inner Strength

Let's talk about haters, nay-sayers & controllers. I've been bullied A LOT in my life. Something about me seems to attract bullying. And I'm not quite sure what it is, but all I know is that I've never let anyone actually bully me. Whether it means getting punched in the face, telling someone off or setting the record straight I've ALWAYS had my own back and have never had a problem standing up for myself.
And a strong person is something a bully doesn't always face. They seek out the weak and let me tell you Imma tough little cookie with a WHOLE lotta inner strength. I know very well that I'm the only one who can actually tear myself down. And WHY would I ever do that myself?
BUT I will tell you, haters & all, all I EVER wish for ANYONE is to be the BEST you can be. And hey, if you wanna be the best bully you can be, YOUR WASTE OF TIME - not mine.
I learned that I can only trust my own instincts. Although, I ALWAYS listen to advice and hear people out -- at the end of the day when I'm sleeping on my futon pad, on my floor; I am the only one who really knows how I feel & what feels right for me.
And let me tell, nothing has ever felt as right as this new little life I am building here in LA. I've never felt so me, so free, and so inspired. And the most exciting feeling is that my DREAMS (yup I have a LOT of dreams & goals) feel as if they are in reach -- FINALLY.

So thank you to all of you that supported me & continue to support me and to my haters (I KNOW YOU'RE READING) like Eliza Doolittle sang "just you WAIT (Enry Eiggens)."

To the haters that have apologized to me: MUCH PROPS. Change is hard and I know just as well as anyone. BUT it's also WORTH IT.

So what have I been up to?
My friend Cassandra drove my car down for me, pretty fun to drive after not driving for 2 months. Altough to be honest I've only driven twice since I got my car, but thank you Cassandra!!
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I bought a new headband that makes me SMILE!! I love things that make me HAPPY!!
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I attended a Keds + Opening Ceremony event at my favorite restaurant Eveleigh. I am TOTALLY obsessed with Keds. They are comfy, cute and so #GAW. The pointy sneakers are just too adorable!! They make me feel like I'm in the 60's & I'm just waiting for my boyfriend to PIN me!!
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Wyatt Hughes skected a picture of me at the event, so fun!
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I also attened a Coachella styling event hosted by Threadsence. I ADORE my new Unif Clothing flannel they hooked me up with, THANK YOU THREADSENCE.
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Last night I attended the Better Off Blonde show, I'm obsessed with their music, female empowerment with edge & humor and 90's tributes!! What's not to love?! I go to live shows here at least once a week and that makes this music lover VERY happy!!
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Happy weekend everyone & as always THANK YOU for reading!! Y'all are TOO good to me!!

Monday, April 9, 2012


Hey Y'all!! I've left you hanging I know ( but please know you can always find me on Facebook, Twitter on Instagram - I'm *Kinda* a social media FREAK!) in any case if you haven't heard I moved to LA!!! HOLLYWOOD. My favorite place in the world & the place I always dreamed of living.
It's been an amazing ride & I keep having to pinch myself that this is my life. Like SERIOUSLY?! But with all the amazingness that I have been enjoying there is still LOTS of pain, loneliness & tears in my new life. I mean I did up-root my life. A life that I had previously spent 28 years working for.
I had a nice little suburban house, I had a cat, I had friends, I had a companion. I made dinner every night & I celebrated every holiday to the fullest.
Starting over from scratch is SCARY and not easy but I'm fully confident that this new path I am on is the one I was destined for and I'm so grateful & THANKFUL for my parents (all three of them), my sister & her roommates for doing all they could to help me through one of the hardest months of my life.
I had lots of plans for my time down here in LA (styling, social media consulting, promoting substitute teaching, selling at the flea market, dancing gigs & to get my blog back to regular posting!! Thank you all for your patience as I re-start my life. Until then here is a quick recap of the past three weeks of my new life since I moved to hollywood!! I've been going to Fashion Events.
That's myself, Talor Jacobson & My new friend Bad Joan!!
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I flew up to San Francisco to go on a Banana Republic shopping spree and was invited to walk the red carpet and attend Al Pacino's new Documentary and exclusive after party. THANK YOU BANANA!!
"The highly anticipated exploratory documentary film “Wilde Salome,” directed by and featuring Al Pacino, made its U.S. debut last night in San Francisco at the Castro Theatre.
Actor and director Al Pacino, producer Barry Navidi, Banana Republic President Jack Calhoun, Banana Republic VP of Marketing Chris Nicklo, burlesque actressDita von Teese and designer Jean Paul Gaultier attended the premiere, presented by Banana Republic. The exclusive after party went late into the night at the Fairmont Hotel Penhouse suite, where guests celebrated the film and mingled with Pacino. All proceeds from the event benefited the GLBT Historical Society.
Presented by Banana Republic."
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I also attended LA Weekly's 2012 Theater awards where we cheered on my sister's boyfriend Dustin Eastman who was nominated for best comedic performance. DUDE has TALENT!!
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I also am having fun being a tourist in my new city!! You know I HEART Marilyn!!
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And I've been enjoying time with my friends & family. LIFE IS GOOD!
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So good I almost forgot about those fears & feelings of loneliness that I had been feeling...
So who's coming to visit me next?!!