Tuesday, January 13, 2015

DiY: MAKiNG A STATEMENT {about SOBRIETY and a} NECKLACE

I like making statements. It's like my thang. I can't help it. I enjoy speaking my mind. And let's NEVER forget we have the RIGHT to speak our minds.  #JeSuisCharlie … and i don't plan on NOT speaking my mind anytime soon. But sometimes I like to make silent statements. Those often can speak the loudest. Plus, it always fun to use my art & style to express myself.  

And what better way to express yourself then in a Statement Necklace? HASHTAG DUH. I was recently inspired to get back on my craft DiY game and make a statement about Sobriety. And i am PRETTY proud of this piece. Like PROUD on SO many levels. #GetOnMyLevel
                   
This EXACTLY the kind of statement i like to make when i walk in the room. 
"Who is #THATGiRL?" … haven't we been over this before? 
It's Amber … MFing LANE …
                
I'm SO OBSESSED  with my new Julia 'Lady J' Gerard Tee shirt paired perfectly with new DiY necklace.
Tee shirts are like my second favorite way to make statements, or whatever. 
And I very much encourage anyone who has ever had a problem with drinking, thinks they may have a problem or are just looking for a WAY BETTER way of life I encourage you to look into a new form of HAPPiNESS called SOBRiETY!!!
And BiG THANK YOU to ALL my sober mentors out there like Russell Brand & Bradley Cooper!! 
Talk about some #BADASS MFing people on #TeamSober … #JustSayin
Happy Tuesday Y'all!!
and CHEERS to HEALTH!!

Monday, January 12, 2015

Colgate Optic White Beauty Bar 2015

I am a pretty excited person. Seriously, I get overly excited about the silliest things. Which works out nicely since I live in a town and work in an industry that applauds and celebrates enthusiasm. Coincidently, this time of year it when accolades and awards are granted to those who channel their enthusiasm and energy i to their artistic work. 

The buzz that surrounds Award Season in Hollywood is infectious. And since I'm on that Sober Tip, I''ll take any good-clean energetic buzz that rolls my way. So when I was invited to the Chateau Marmot to kick off Golden Globes weekend at the Colgate #OpticWhite Beauty Bar, I could barely contain my excitement. No, seriously. 

Guests invited to the Colgate Optic bar were treated to manicures, massages, and makeup applications by Priv (beauty on Demand App; infused water by Rove; vegan milkshakes by Naturade; popsicles and champagne with frozen fruit pops by Chloe’s Fruit; gifting and pop-up shop by LA-based clothing line, 35mm; and, gifting by jewelry brand, Tuleste. 

Um. Hella fun basically. 

Isn't Jennie garth the cutest ??!!
I had an amazing time enjoying myself at the Beauty Bar mingling with so many of my favorites and it was also such an honor to have my hair done by Celebrity Stylist Josue Perez.
                                 
Josue also styled my FAVES Christina Milian and Cheryl Burke's coifs in preparation for a weekend full of celebrating, elbow rubbing and excitement

 Jose kills it with the Rowenta Beauty Tools.
Cheryl is a fellow Bay Lady like me. She's the SWEETEST!
                                       And me in the chair of honor. Sometime my excitement looks like nervosness. haha.
Josue and I were on that goofy wave. 
Seriously wavy. 
I couldn't imagine a better way to kick off the 2015 Award Season and the 2015 year in general.
Thank you again  
to Colgate Optic White Jen Betts and Pivotal PR for having me.
      PHOTO CREDIT: ALEX WYMAN // AP/INVISION

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Style Icon: I Swear She's Destined For the Screen

Before her name was getting dropped in Billboard 100 songs like Mark Ronson's 'Uptown Funk' & Vance's 'Riptide' the iconic Michelle Pfeiffer has throwing game DOWN. 

One of my responsibilities of an actress is to learn from the greats and Michelle Pfeiffer's career choices have always been ones I've enjoyed. She's just so sweet, lovely & BADASS. Her role as Elvira in Scarface is DEFINITELY an enviable character to rock out. I could watch that movie over & over, and obviously I'm not alone on that feeling. 

Not to mention Elvira's wardrobe for that role was AMAZING.

Michelle like can't help but be hot. I mean like smoking (which coincidentally she does a lot of in Scarface). 
  "Lesson number two: Don't get high on your own supply."
-Elvira Hancock
"Can't you stop saying fuck all the time?"
-Elvira Hancock 
 "Don't call me "Baby". I'm not your "Baby"."
-Elvira Hancock
 "Nothing exceeds like excess. You should know that, Tony."
-Elvira Hancock
 "What makes you so much better than me? What do you do? Kill people? Deal your drugs? Real contribution to human history Tony! What makes you think you can be a father? You don't even know how to be a good husband!"
-Elvira Hancock
 Of course I had to wear my love for Michelle & Elvira on my "sleeve" … I am SERiOUSLY obessed with my Married to the Mob Elvira leggings. A must for any Scarface fanatic. 
Happy Thursday Y'all!! 

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Free The Nipple & Your Demons …

"Yeah it's been a ride man. I guess i had to go to that place, to get to this one. Now, some of you, might still be in that place. If you're trying to get out, just follow me. I'll get you there." -Eminem #NotAfriad

Well 2014 was a hell of a year. I embarked on many new journeys in 2014. Like enrolling in James Franco's Studio 4 Acting School and getting my SAG card.   But first and foremost my 2014 started with my 2013 decsion to get sober. The end of 2013 was a rough one for me & i was at my absolute worst. I had exhausted my party efforts to a point where i was on a path to self destruction. It was either sober up or wait for something terrible to happen. 

A drunken arrest & passing out on Melrose (only to be picked up by an ambulance) were not enough to slow my roll. When it finally dawned on me that i needed to get sober, i started looking at my options. Rehab, AA and all alternative methods. And while i did attend some meetings, i, for the most part looked in side myself to find the strength and mostly courage to turn down (for what, i'd prefer my dream instead) alcohol.

It was a daily choice, sometimes an hourly and by-the-minute choice. Champagne, man i miss that ishh. Drunken sessions with my ladies? Miss those too. And man, liquid courage, that was my fuel. How to do you expect me to party with Drake when i still got all my inhibitions??  It's MFing Hard to lose that shxxt & act like I'm not shy as fxxck when you're sober. 

Nights were hard, but i still hit the Hollywood club scene likka a TMZ socialite. Sugar Free Red Bull or Mr. Pinks complete withha straw in tow. I was #ThatGirl. The sober girl at the club onna Tuesday… "who is she???" Amber MFing Lane, that's who. 

Mornings were rough for the first three months. Um, do hangovers ever stop? I was onna perma-one for days until my system began to clear out. But once my system cleared i started to see that my endless sorrow, depression and guilt over my actions from the night before began to fade. It was likka a black cloud had magically lifted. One I NEVER thought would pass. It was like those demons of mine finally stopped bothering me.

I learned a lot about myself this past year, that for sure. Pretty sure i got to know a part of me that i had been drowning in alcohol for the past 15 years, and she's actually pretty badass and one hard ass fxxking worker. And yeah maybe it still takes me awhile to warm up, but my confidence (as evidenced in my acting and dedication to work) is back and better then ever.

I've always been an outsider, and sure due to society (and what it constitutes as "doing something") Sobriety makes me even more of an outsider, but i'm cool with that cuz i'm cool with myself now. And that's what matters. I'm not trying to impress or making anyone happy but myself (I mean I like making my parents happy & proud but sometimes even they don't totally "get me").  and #NEWSFLASH … drinking is NOT an activity, and i'll be the first to say that you have a problem with alcohol if drinking to "do-something" is your go-to (daily, weekly) hobby. 

Eminem served as my unofficial sponsor during my sobriety journey. He was always a click away for me day & night. Whenever i needed words of wisdom from someone who's gone down this path of overcoming their demons before, i turned to Em.

And James Franco was my guiding light, giving me an outlet to pour all the energy i used to pour in partying & socializing. I instead poured all that time, energy & pain into art, like i had never been able to before. THANK YOU JAMES FRANCO. 

in honor of my two boundary-pushing  mentors who pushed me through 2014, i look forward to year of pushing boundaries even further. I plan on getting to those places i DREAM of, and would NEVER be able to reach with a glass of champagne in my hand. 

SO i encourage you to go out and push yourself outside your comfort zone this 2015. Make a change for the better. Free yourself from your own demons (#FreeTheDemons #DontFeedTheDemons). And soar higher then you have ever been before. 

Happy New Year and THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE & SUPPORT in 2014!!! Here's to a kick-ass Boundary pushing, #DreamDoin TWENTY FIFTIETH !!!! 

" i love to do something the censors won't pass. " - Marilyn Monroe
 … 
i'm coming at 'cha 2015. 
Get ready.


Thursday, August 28, 2014

PEN & Story TELLER … Making Magic Happen

I moved to LA for a dream. A dream of telling stories & sharing them with people. Stories teach lessons. Stories inspire people. Stories are my favorite. If you ever sit me down and get me to open up i'll probably won't stop telling stories & theories to you. It's probably my favorite thing to do, so i moved down to LA where story telling is the name of the game. The Music, Movie & Television industries are story telling machines & i can't wait to tell my story & the story of others in all sorts of mediums.

I got into the public story telling game online & that is always my go-to. If you follow my twitter & instagram it's a glimpse at some of the stories i tell. it's a perspective of the world from my point of view. And since moving to LA i have emerged myself in the Entertainment business & studying the ways of artistic story telling.

Back in April (at my three month sober mark) I applied to James Franco's Playhouse West Studio 4 acting school & i have been studying there ever since. At Studio Four I have not only found my confidence in being an actor (a confidence i was petrified of for awhile) but i have also found a lovely & ever growing family of artists like me, who share the love of story telling. And being surrounded by artists & fellow story stores has finally given me a sense of HOME here in LA. Plus it's given me AMAZING opportunities like auditioning for Rabbit Bandini Productions (AKA James Frano's Production Company) projects.

There is so much i want to do & still so many stories i want to tell & write. And just in case you listening universe: I want to act (and eventually direct, produce, screen write) in amazing movies (I really want to bring old school glamour back & be in some westerns!!!). I also would love a behind the scenes special on like HBO or something, cuz i drop F-Bombs a lot & smoke pot. I also REALLY want have a country/rap music album. Lastly, I'd love a  magazine column, a book deal & a fashion line at some point.

I'm on that mogul game & I'm just taking in everything I can by this wonderful land of LA filled with dreamers, doers & story tellers.


So as my Dad always told me about living life "write your story."

& that's what I'm working on.

So let me ask you, what's your story?


Now let's all go out write our own stories. And make them REALLy good!! You inspire me & maybe I can inspire you.


LOVE Y'ALL & Happy Thursday!!


…. at the 2014 HBO emmy after party … just manifesting HBO cameras  following me around ….





Monday, June 9, 2014

Dream Doer: Sarah Silberfeld

One thing I love about LA is meeting other creative types, from around the world who came to LA to follow their dreams. Today I am featuring a GORGEOUS  incredibly talented young women, Sarah Silberfeld. 

I mean hot is she?? These are the kinds of people I meet down here, the ones brave enough to go after their dreams. Sarah Silberfeld is an up & coming actress from Paris, where her notoriety is started to take off. Her dream is to take her acting career to the next level in LA.

Her latest performance is from "Jin'naariya!" a film by Rahmatou Ke├»ta that went to Cannes this spring for its world premiere. 

Sarah Silbereld is originally from Poland and Mali originally and is now based out of Paris. Sarah Silberfeld also has a presence & she known in Niger, where she will be part of the Judge panel for a art contest for young actors. Giving back is key in dream doing. 


Sarah is currently being considered for a part in 212, the feature length script of Ride or Die which she will have a lead part in it as well alongside Piper De Palma,  Ali Aroyan Roxane Depardieu.

Sarah Silbereld has shot for great photographers such as Rodolphe Gonzalez (Head manager of the Chanel runways). Dirk Mai, Djeneba Aduayom (background dancer of Beyonce and Tina Turner)  and Alex Elena (Lily Allen's producer).

Sarah's dream is to develop as an actress in the US where she would be a great element for the multi-ethnic American Film industry. 

Sarah has studied from The Lee Strasberg Institute to the Playhouse West festival, her mentors are Holly Gagnier, Cathy Giannone, Sharon Angela and Michael Bershad. 

I look forward to watching Sarah's artist journey and see how far he creativity takes her. Congratulations Sarah for being brave enough to follow your dreams!! We need more Dream Doers like you out there. Thank you for being so courageous & brave!





Friday, May 16, 2014

Stuck in Her Daydream ...

Since I was a little girl I dreamed of being able to wear pretty dresses. Whether I was playing Barbies, watching My Fair Lady or looking at pictures of Princess Diana I have always been fascinated by gowns & the women who wore them. Wearing ball gowns & princess dresses has always been an ultimate fantasy of mine. I even dreamed of being a fashion designer, mostly, because I dreamed of wearing dresses I designed. In high school I would design & make my own dresses so I could say I was wearing my own design at school dances.
So last night at the Chagoury Couture event  it felt like my dreams were beginning to come true. Not only did i get to try on a couple of Chagoury Couture gowns, I also got to try my hand at a chance to be a guest designer with Chagoury Couture!! Two dreams coming to fruition on one night had me giddy as could be!!! 
Thank you so much to Pivotal PR for having me out & helping me feel like a kid and a princess all in one night!! Y'all are amazing!!

Checking out the behind the sciences of Chagoury Couture designs. This felt like a dream world to me! I love seeing where artists create magic!
My dress design. I was feeling a little retro with my look.
And then i played dress up …
and it was AWESOME!
I was TOTALLY pretending i was on the Cannes red carpet. You know just getting in some practice before next year … (i'm always Manifesting!!)
Four year old Amber would have been pretty MFing proud of 31 year old Amber last night. 
Been doing my signature pose since i first started day-dreaming of dressing up …
Go out and make YOUR dreams happen.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Soya Wanna Dream ?

Things have been going really well down here in Hollywood, California. In April i started acting classes at James Franco's Studio 4 Playhouse West and it has been nothing short of amazing. From the opportunities I have been given to the people i have i met it has all rocked my world. But Most importunely I have learned so much about my self, my character and my drive.

… and when i'm not so gosh darn nervous, excited and scatterbrained i'll wrote more on that. I mean I got a have a script to memorize!!



But seriously, going to acting classes not only help me hone my skills as an actor but it also helps me become a better a person. I learn so much about myself during the classes and the whole acting process. And this weekend i am SO excited to shoot my first Film! It's going to be an awesome experience and I can't wait to share more with y'all soon. But for now I am focused on the job at hand and counting my blessing for having the courage to go after my dreams.



Big thanks to Pivotal PR & SEXY HAIR for hooking my up with their new Soya Want it all products. I'll be having the products on hand on set so the  hair stylist can help pump up my volume, sexiness & confidence. You know everything a Hollywood actress needs (… I say that as if i am convincing myself). Cuz I'm gonna need a lot of it!! I'm scared & excited as heck!! Thanks again SEXY HAIR & Pivotal PR !!! So nice i have y'all cheering  me on!! It means the world to me!!



Have a fabulous weekend!! Hope you do whatever makes you truly HAPPY!! Go out LIVE your life .. the one you always dreamed of!!!

Monday, March 10, 2014

Follow The Yellow Brick Road …

Next Monday, St. Patrick's Day, will mark my 2nd Anniversary of being a Resident in LA. And it's been a helluva two years. It's been an amazing soul searching challenge, and i am so proud of all that i have accomplished in the past two years.

I came to LA to reinvent myself. Well not really reinvent myself, but to become the person i always wanted to be. I came to LA  soon after my divorce had been finalized. I had spent my twenties working towards life I thought I wanted. I made big decisions early in my life. I got engaged when I was twenty one. Purchased a house when i was twenty two. Got married when i was twenty four.  None of those decisions do I regret in anyway. I spent my time learning how to be an adult, traveling the world, and working on a career & my education. My twenties were amazing. But as time passed i realized, while i loved my life, I wanted more. It was when I was sick in the hospital that i began to realize i was not truly happy. And more importantly i was not being authentically me.

So when i made the move to LA two years ago i was determined to be ME. Which i aptly named the "new me" Amber MFing Lane. In some ways i  became the complete opposite of the housewife / elementary school teacher i had been in my "previous life". But in all honestly i had never felt more me then i had ever felt. It was like a part of me that i had suffocated in my twenties was allowed to come back out & play. 

Moving to LA gave me a place to be free, to learn to grow and express myself the way i always wanted to express myself. 

Sure i made mistakes, but i learned from them. I stopped letting things get me down and i stopped listening to nay-sayers. And now that I am sober i have a clarity i have never had before.  I've had to face a lot of fears when i decided to completely change my life path. Rebuilding isn't easy, but sure as hell is worth it. A change will aways do you do. Small or Major.

And when tough times faced me, i maned up. I came to terms and learned to enjoy solitude (which at times felt like loneliness). I listened & looked to signs from the universe when i felt unsure. And they were always there, letting my know i was truly on my yellow brick road.

When i felt like my world had no structure i made structure. I made a list of three things i had to do every single day: 
1. Organize my life (starting with the small,  making my bed everyday for example) 
2. Have as many positive interactions with people as i possibly can (from saying hi to everyone i met, to saying yes to almost every invite i would get, and keeping in touch with my new & old friends). 
3. Creating something (whether it be an instagram post, or attending Acting Classes) creativity makes me thrive 

Whenever i felt lost, i concentrated on my list, and it always pushed me forward. I have learned that no matter the realm there will always be challenges. I was talking to my Dad the other day and was mentioning how i can't wait to have my House in The Hollywood Hills soon & have my own laundry machine. And he said, "well you have a lot more headaches when you own a house again." and I told I know there will challenges when owning a house but I'm in that realm I'll deal with them. Challenges don't spoil my dreams, they make them worth it. Life is never "perfect". It's just perfectly perfect in the moments when you are truly alive.

and I finally have learned to be happy with what you have in the moment. And I couldn't be happier now, living where i do focusing my creative energy on my dream and living in a city that so fully embraces that idea. 

i love being in a city that is full of dreamers! Because no matter where you are in life, even when happy, content, or comfortable; savor the moment, but ALWAYS strive for more. Because, like i said before, a change will always do you good. Big or small. And dreaming is never a bad thing, and I'm never gonna stop dreaming. 

So I'm gonna go LIVE my dream and kick off my last week of my second year in LA inna big way. Cuz let me just tell you my third year own is going to be MAJOR and I can't MFing wait for it.

Big shout out to ALL the amazing people i have met in my two years down here & to all that knew me before and supported me through this transition. I LOVE Y'ALL!!!



GO out and spread some LOVE , POSiTiViTY & DREAMS!! And follow go your Yellow Brick Road.









Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Hi my name is Amber & I'm a Badass...

okay fine, i was gonna say I'm an alcoholic, but i like saying imma Badass better. Right? Anyway, I'm working on 51 days of sobriety and i think that qualifies for badass, if i do say so myself (if i do say so myself, i do say so myself…)

And being a badass has me feeling some type of way. And that way i feel isn't drunk, hungover or depressed  -- it's amazing.

So yeah, first question most people ask me is: "did anything bad happen to get me to this point of sobriety?" Now that's a trick question. No, there was no final big blow-out with alcohol that i had. I mean plenty of not-good things had happened during my 15 year drinking binge. But, in fact, I actually had a few amazing things happen to me that led to my epiphany that it was time to stop drinking.

One of them was attending a Nylon magazine party back in December that was Hosted by Demi Lovato. It was was a sober event and it got the wheels spinning in my head that maybe it was time for my first sober year since i was sixteen.

I'd been a weekend warrior, and a full time alcoholic and i was FINALLY getting bored of the cycle. I came to realize that if i wanted my dreams to come true; it was time to face life without a crutch or  a glass of liquid courage in my hand.

I realized that drinking & being an alcoholic was a choice i was making. I never thought to say no to drinking, or stop once i started. I was having fun drinking! Or more like i was convincing myself i was having fun, and convincing myself the depression i felt wasn't from drinking. Shit, I needed a drink to drink that sadness right away! Never once did i want to admit i was bringing this all upon myself by my own choice.

Okay, maybe i did had a voice in the back of my head that blamed the alcohol for the shitty ways i felt. The voice that hated me for waking up hungover, felt ashamed that the liquor store owners knew my drinking patterns, and that voice that wondered if i'd still be fun if i didn't drink.

Well let me tell you, as a self proclaimed BADASS, hell yeah i'm just as fun. Shit, i'm even more fun now. I hit the town harder then i ever have before. Hollywood clubs ain't got nothing on me and my Red Bull. I can honestly say i have never had more fun in my life and i have never been happier then i am now. I'm drunk on life now, and that's something that can't be bottled & drank to make your dreams come true.

So shout out to ALL my friends & family that have been cheering me on. Everyone that has been there for me the past two months has been nothing but AMAZING!! Y'ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE!! And i am SO grateful for all the LOVE & support I have and so THANKFUL for all the opportunities i am given.

So who's ready to party? Cuz I sure am! Pass that non-alcoholic beer my way…. i'll still drink you under the table...

Cuz the way i feel, i'm strong enough to go to the club 
or the corner pub 
and lift the whole liquor counter up 
Cuz I'm raising the bar, 
i'd shoot for the moon but i'm too busy gazing at the stars 
i feel feel amazing i'm… not afraid.. 

Love y'all and cheers to being healthy & happy!! xoxo