Monday, June 22, 2015

Give Your Heart (and Skin) a Break

motivating people are my favorite. always have been. the people who go out there and show the world they have something to offer and lay it out there for us all to see are captivating and inspiring. They aren't ashamed to talk about "issues' they've overcome or things out of our control that we can beat ourselves up over (WE HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT!!)  While we can't pick our bodies and skin we can learn to take care of what we are given, but it's not always natural for some of us. Some of us have to LEARN to care of ourselves emotionally & physically. 

Recently I had the amazing opportunity to not only preview Demi Lovato's skin care line Devonne by Demi, I also got to speak with Demi herself. And wow Demi is one brave soul. She's bared her soul to us, on stage and off the stage. She's shared her hurdles she's overcome and in doing so she's helped SO many others (myself included).

In another effort to give back to those still learning to over hurdles demi developed a skincare line called Devonne By Demi. Specially for those in-between years and all around "take of your skin" because it's yours and it's going to be yours for the rest of your time.

Demi's efforts of helping those with finicky skin (again, myself included lol) go beyond just an amazing botanical skincare routine. Demi's skincare line also GIVES BACK to those struggling with drug and alcohol addiction (something I openly struggle with myself).

And to further Demi's efforts of helping others face fears she has piloted a No Makeup Monday campaign in which demi herself bares her face au natural and stays true to her no hold barred, let's all get to our TRUE SELVES attitude. 

THANK YOU demi for all that you do for those following in your footsteps. You are years wiser then your age and you inspire SO many older and younger then you!! Thank you!!

& here is my #NMM (NO MAKEUP MONDAY) … feeling pretty brave after using Devonne by Demi's botanical ski care routine. That spray tho …. LOVE it all!! & THANK YOU DEMI!!

#NMM


see what i mean about GIVING BACK … 
demi & i … LOVE this girl and what she does

Thanks again Demi and make sure to check out Devonne By demi!

Monday, June 15, 2015

REFLECTIONS: the 33rd Degree Initiation

yesterday i celebrated my 33rd birthday.  not gonna lie it's kinda crazy to me. i mean i feel just as young as i ever have, i don't know what "old" feels like. & as wild as it is for me to imagine that i am older then both my parents when i arrived on this planet, i am very much at peace at where i am with my life. 

The past 5 birthdays have been rough. My 28th birthday i spent sick, my 29 i spent crying & miserable that i was stuck in a life i wasn't meant for. Year 30 i had culture shock being single in LA.
31, well, we can just forget that one, & 32 was sweet but it was spent at a friends wedding.

but yesterday my 33rd was THE BEST birthday i've had in SO long. I mean on some levels it's weird to celebrate such an "adult" age in the midst of a life overhaul but the amount of love i was showered with yesterday let's me know this is THE PATH i am supposed to be on.

When you are surrounded by love you're always in the right spot. THANK YOU to all who sent me wishes and LOVE on my birthday!!! Y'all made this Gemini REAL happy!! 

My day as "birthday girl" started with some quality time at my favorite place on earth the beach. Malibu always makes me feel SO loved!! 




After my beach meditation and mind clearing session, Cassandra and i headed to the PRIDE parade in weho … I rocked American Flag regalia in honor of #flagday … the parade was wild !! 
i owe SO much to my LA transition to this one!! LOVE YOU Cassandra!! 
after the parade we headed to the Sunset Marquis. "the Marquis" is one of my very favorite spots in LA and i love the ambiance and the staff there SO much!! it was lovely to ring in my new year with LOVE!

We bounced around the sunset strip from there … I mean I'm kinda obsessed with the strip and always have been. pretty Mollie came to meet us for snacks and laughs.

and seeing this one's LIFE journey aka Fairytale unfold before my eyes as I've lived down in LA has been one of my FAVORITE things ever
LOVE YOU LAUREN!!!!

I was pretty happy to say the least! we stropped at several places to blow out candles & make birthday wishes! 

 and then i watched the warriors game … watching basketball on my birthday?? um this like never happens!!! gotta LOVE Steph Curry!!!  SO blessed to see my team playin in the finals!!! #MVP
my roll girl came by to celebrate from there and we got drama nerdy and we reconnected like old times. LOVE YA MAGALI!! 
the sparks were flying for me & my night was pretty magical !! this much love in my life is my light guide … 

always make sure to follow your light and listen to your heart. it'll talk to ya and guide you where to go … 


Wednesday, May 13, 2015

About Town : TANYA HEATH PARIS

I am forever grateful to live in LA. It is the land of opportunities for myself and so many others. It is a hub of fashion, music, entertainment and art. And I am SO grateful for all the opportunities i am given to experience the wonders of this world; and so thankful to meet so many amazing people who put their heart and soul in to their lives and share their art & dreams with us all.

I recently was invited by Pivotal Pr to attend the Grand Opening part of Tanya Heath Paris' first American Boutique, and i had a BLAST checking out the new space on Robertson Blvd ( a favorite street of mine here in LA) and trying on the new interchange high heels.

I mean how rad is that? You can make a show go from classy to funky in a switch of a heel and for a gemini like me with a fickle mind it's the ultimate shoe. And how can one not feel like Cinderella when trying on magical heels? Thank you again to Pivotal PR And Tanya Heath for having me!

The space is just lovely.
and how rad are these interchangeable heels?? 

The Heel bar Baby!!

& me in awe of the magical heels … 


Thanks again to Tanya Heath, Jen Betts at Pivotal Pr and to Vivien Killiea of Getty Images for the pictures! Y'all made me feel so special and so much love to you all!

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

DiY: MAKiNG A STATEMENT {about SOBRIETY and a} NECKLACE

I like making statements. It's like my thang. I can't help it. I enjoy speaking my mind. And let's NEVER forget we have the RIGHT to speak our minds.  #JeSuisCharlie … and i don't plan on NOT speaking my mind anytime soon. But sometimes I like to make silent statements. Those often can speak the loudest. Plus, it always fun to use my art & style to express myself.  

And what better way to express yourself then in a Statement Necklace? HASHTAG DUH. I was recently inspired to get back on my craft DiY game and make a statement about Sobriety. And i am PRETTY proud of this piece. Like PROUD on SO many levels. #GetOnMyLevel
                   
This EXACTLY the kind of statement i like to make when i walk in the room. 
"Who is #THATGiRL?" … haven't we been over this before? 
It's Amber … MFing LANE …
                
I'm SO OBSESSED  with my new Julia 'Lady J' Gerard Tee shirt paired perfectly with new DiY necklace.
Tee shirts are like my second favorite way to make statements, or whatever. 
And I very much encourage anyone who has ever had a problem with drinking, thinks they may have a problem or are just looking for a WAY BETTER way of life I encourage you to look into a new form of HAPPiNESS called SOBRiETY!!!
And BiG THANK YOU to ALL my sober mentors out there like Russell Brand & Bradley Cooper!! 
Talk about some #BADASS MFing people on #TeamSober … #JustSayin
Happy Tuesday Y'all!!
and CHEERS to HEALTH!!

Monday, January 12, 2015

Colgate Optic White Beauty Bar 2015

I am a pretty excited person. Seriously, I get overly excited about the silliest things. Which works out nicely since I live in a town and work in an industry that applauds and celebrates enthusiasm. Coincidently, this time of year it when accolades and awards are granted to those who channel their enthusiasm and energy i to their artistic work. 

The buzz that surrounds Award Season in Hollywood is infectious. And since I'm on that Sober Tip, I''ll take any good-clean energetic buzz that rolls my way. So when I was invited to the Chateau Marmot to kick off Golden Globes weekend at the Colgate #OpticWhite Beauty Bar, I could barely contain my excitement. No, seriously. 

Guests invited to the Colgate Optic bar were treated to manicures, massages, and makeup applications by Priv (beauty on Demand App; infused water by Rove; vegan milkshakes by Naturade; popsicles and champagne with frozen fruit pops by Chloe’s Fruit; gifting and pop-up shop by LA-based clothing line, 35mm; and, gifting by jewelry brand, Tuleste. 

Um. Hella fun basically. 

Isn't Jennie garth the cutest ??!!
I had an amazing time enjoying myself at the Beauty Bar mingling with so many of my favorites and it was also such an honor to have my hair done by Celebrity Stylist Josue Perez.
                                 
Josue also styled my FAVES Christina Milian and Cheryl Burke's coifs in preparation for a weekend full of celebrating, elbow rubbing and excitement

 Jose kills it with the Rowenta Beauty Tools.
Cheryl is a fellow Bay Lady like me. She's the SWEETEST!
                                       And me in the chair of honor. Sometime my excitement looks like nervosness. haha.
Josue and I were on that goofy wave. 
Seriously wavy. 
I couldn't imagine a better way to kick off the 2015 Award Season and the 2015 year in general.
Thank you again  
to Colgate Optic White Jen Betts and Pivotal PR for having me.
      PHOTO CREDIT: ALEX WYMAN // AP/INVISION

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Style Icon: I Swear She's Destined For the Screen

Before her name was getting dropped in Billboard 100 songs like Mark Ronson's 'Uptown Funk' & Vance's 'Riptide' the iconic Michelle Pfeiffer has throwing game DOWN. 

One of my responsibilities of an actress is to learn from the greats and Michelle Pfeiffer's career choices have always been ones I've enjoyed. She's just so sweet, lovely & BADASS. Her role as Elvira in Scarface is DEFINITELY an enviable character to rock out. I could watch that movie over & over, and obviously I'm not alone on that feeling. 

Not to mention Elvira's wardrobe for that role was AMAZING.

Michelle like can't help but be hot. I mean like smoking (which coincidentally she does a lot of in Scarface). 
  "Lesson number two: Don't get high on your own supply."
-Elvira Hancock
"Can't you stop saying fuck all the time?"
-Elvira Hancock 
 "Don't call me "Baby". I'm not your "Baby"."
-Elvira Hancock
 "Nothing exceeds like excess. You should know that, Tony."
-Elvira Hancock
 "What makes you so much better than me? What do you do? Kill people? Deal your drugs? Real contribution to human history Tony! What makes you think you can be a father? You don't even know how to be a good husband!"
-Elvira Hancock
 Of course I had to wear my love for Michelle & Elvira on my "sleeve" … I am SERiOUSLY obessed with my Married to the Mob Elvira leggings. A must for any Scarface fanatic. 
Happy Thursday Y'all!! 

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Free The Nipple & Your Demons …

"Yeah it's been a ride man. I guess i had to go to that place, to get to this one. Now, some of you, might still be in that place. If you're trying to get out, just follow me. I'll get you there." -Eminem #NotAfriad

Well 2014 was a hell of a year. I embarked on many new journeys in 2014. Like enrolling in James Franco's Studio 4 Acting School and getting my SAG card.   But first and foremost my 2014 started with my 2013 decsion to get sober. The end of 2013 was a rough one for me & i was at my absolute worst. I had exhausted my party efforts to a point where i was on a path to self destruction. It was either sober up or wait for something terrible to happen. 

A drunken arrest & passing out on Melrose (only to be picked up by an ambulance) were not enough to slow my roll. When it finally dawned on me that i needed to get sober, i started looking at my options. Rehab, AA and all alternative methods. And while i did attend some meetings, i, for the most part looked in side myself to find the strength and mostly courage to turn down (for what, i'd prefer my dream instead) alcohol.

It was a daily choice, sometimes an hourly and by-the-minute choice. Champagne, man i miss that ishh. Drunken sessions with my ladies? Miss those too. And man, liquid courage, that was my fuel. How to do you expect me to party with Drake when i still got all my inhibitions??  It's MFing Hard to lose that shxxt & act like I'm not shy as fxxck when you're sober. 

Nights were hard, but i still hit the Hollywood club scene likka a TMZ socialite. Sugar Free Red Bull or Mr. Pinks complete withha straw in tow. I was #ThatGirl. The sober girl at the club onna Tuesday… "who is she???" Amber MFing Lane, that's who. 

Mornings were rough for the first three months. Um, do hangovers ever stop? I was onna perma-one for days until my system began to clear out. But once my system cleared i started to see that my endless sorrow, depression and guilt over my actions from the night before began to fade. It was likka a black cloud had magically lifted. One I NEVER thought would pass. It was like those demons of mine finally stopped bothering me.

I learned a lot about myself this past year, that for sure. Pretty sure i got to know a part of me that i had been drowning in alcohol for the past 15 years, and she's actually pretty badass and one hard ass fxxking worker. And yeah maybe it still takes me awhile to warm up, but my confidence (as evidenced in my acting and dedication to work) is back and better then ever.

I've always been an outsider, and sure due to society (and what it constitutes as "doing something") Sobriety makes me even more of an outsider, but i'm cool with that cuz i'm cool with myself now. And that's what matters. I'm not trying to impress or making anyone happy but myself (I mean I like making my parents happy & proud but sometimes even they don't totally "get me").  and #NEWSFLASH … drinking is NOT an activity, and i'll be the first to say that you have a problem with alcohol if drinking to "do-something" is your go-to (daily, weekly) hobby. 

Eminem served as my unofficial sponsor during my sobriety journey. He was always a click away for me day & night. Whenever i needed words of wisdom from someone who's gone down this path of overcoming their demons before, i turned to Em.

And James Franco was my guiding light, giving me an outlet to pour all the energy i used to pour in partying & socializing. I instead poured all that time, energy & pain into art, like i had never been able to before. THANK YOU JAMES FRANCO. 

in honor of my two boundary-pushing  mentors who pushed me through 2014, i look forward to year of pushing boundaries even further. I plan on getting to those places i DREAM of, and would NEVER be able to reach with a glass of champagne in my hand. 

SO i encourage you to go out and push yourself outside your comfort zone this 2015. Make a change for the better. Free yourself from your own demons (#FreeTheDemons #DontFeedTheDemons). And soar higher then you have ever been before. 

Happy New Year and THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE & SUPPORT in 2014!!! Here's to a kick-ass Boundary pushing, #DreamDoin TWENTY FIFTIETH !!!! 

" i love to do something the censors won't pass. " - Marilyn Monroe
 … 
i'm coming at 'cha 2015. 
Get ready.


Thursday, August 28, 2014

PEN & Story TELLER … Making Magic Happen

I moved to LA for a dream. A dream of telling stories & sharing them with people. Stories teach lessons. Stories inspire people. Stories are my favorite. If you ever sit me down and get me to open up i'll probably won't stop telling stories & theories to you. It's probably my favorite thing to do, so i moved down to LA where story telling is the name of the game. The Music, Movie & Television industries are story telling machines & i can't wait to tell my story & the story of others in all sorts of mediums.

I got into the public story telling game online & that is always my go-to. If you follow my twitter & instagram it's a glimpse at some of the stories i tell. it's a perspective of the world from my point of view. And since moving to LA i have emerged myself in the Entertainment business & studying the ways of artistic story telling.

Back in April (at my three month sober mark) I applied to James Franco's Playhouse West Studio 4 acting school & i have been studying there ever since. At Studio Four I have not only found my confidence in being an actor (a confidence i was petrified of for awhile) but i have also found a lovely & ever growing family of artists like me, who share the love of story telling. And being surrounded by artists & fellow story stores has finally given me a sense of HOME here in LA. Plus it's given me AMAZING opportunities like auditioning for Rabbit Bandini Productions (AKA James Frano's Production Company) projects.

There is so much i want to do & still so many stories i want to tell & write. And just in case you listening universe: I want to act (and eventually direct, produce, screen write) in amazing movies (I really want to bring old school glamour back & be in some westerns!!!). I also would love a behind the scenes special on like HBO or something, cuz i drop F-Bombs a lot & smoke pot. I also REALLY want have a country/rap music album. Lastly, I'd love a  magazine column, a book deal & a fashion line at some point.

I'm on that mogul game & I'm just taking in everything I can by this wonderful land of LA filled with dreamers, doers & story tellers.


So as my Dad always told me about living life "write your story."

& that's what I'm working on.

So let me ask you, what's your story?


Now let's all go out write our own stories. And make them REALLy good!! You inspire me & maybe I can inspire you.


LOVE Y'ALL & Happy Thursday!!


…. at the 2014 HBO emmy after party … just manifesting HBO cameras  following me around ….





Monday, June 9, 2014

Dream Doer: Sarah Silberfeld

One thing I love about LA is meeting other creative types, from around the world who came to LA to follow their dreams. Today I am featuring a GORGEOUS  incredibly talented young women, Sarah Silberfeld. 

I mean hot is she?? These are the kinds of people I meet down here, the ones brave enough to go after their dreams. Sarah Silberfeld is an up & coming actress from Paris, where her notoriety is started to take off. Her dream is to take her acting career to the next level in LA.

Her latest performance is from "Jin'naariya!" a film by Rahmatou Ke├»ta that went to Cannes this spring for its world premiere. 

Sarah Silbereld is originally from Poland and Mali originally and is now based out of Paris. Sarah Silberfeld also has a presence & she known in Niger, where she will be part of the Judge panel for a art contest for young actors. Giving back is key in dream doing. 


Sarah is currently being considered for a part in 212, the feature length script of Ride or Die which she will have a lead part in it as well alongside Piper De Palma,  Ali Aroyan Roxane Depardieu.

Sarah Silbereld has shot for great photographers such as Rodolphe Gonzalez (Head manager of the Chanel runways). Dirk Mai, Djeneba Aduayom (background dancer of Beyonce and Tina Turner)  and Alex Elena (Lily Allen's producer).

Sarah's dream is to develop as an actress in the US where she would be a great element for the multi-ethnic American Film industry. 

Sarah has studied from The Lee Strasberg Institute to the Playhouse West festival, her mentors are Holly Gagnier, Cathy Giannone, Sharon Angela and Michael Bershad. 

I look forward to watching Sarah's artist journey and see how far he creativity takes her. Congratulations Sarah for being brave enough to follow your dreams!! We need more Dream Doers like you out there. Thank you for being so courageous & brave!





Friday, May 16, 2014

Stuck in Her Daydream ...

Since I was a little girl I dreamed of being able to wear pretty dresses. Whether I was playing Barbies, watching My Fair Lady or looking at pictures of Princess Diana I have always been fascinated by gowns & the women who wore them. Wearing ball gowns & princess dresses has always been an ultimate fantasy of mine. I even dreamed of being a fashion designer, mostly, because I dreamed of wearing dresses I designed. In high school I would design & make my own dresses so I could say I was wearing my own design at school dances.
So last night at the Chagoury Couture event  it felt like my dreams were beginning to come true. Not only did i get to try on a couple of Chagoury Couture gowns, I also got to try my hand at a chance to be a guest designer with Chagoury Couture!! Two dreams coming to fruition on one night had me giddy as could be!!! 
Thank you so much to Pivotal PR for having me out & helping me feel like a kid and a princess all in one night!! Y'all are amazing!!

Checking out the behind the sciences of Chagoury Couture designs. This felt like a dream world to me! I love seeing where artists create magic!
My dress design. I was feeling a little retro with my look.
And then i played dress up …
and it was AWESOME!
I was TOTALLY pretending i was on the Cannes red carpet. You know just getting in some practice before next year … (i'm always Manifesting!!)
Four year old Amber would have been pretty MFing proud of 31 year old Amber last night. 
Been doing my signature pose since i first started day-dreaming of dressing up …
Go out and make YOUR dreams happen.